No One Knows- More thoughts...

I don't know what to think or how to feel...No one knows what's going through my head right now and I seriously doubt that they'll figure it out. I'm laughing and smiling and making sure that I'm consious...but I'm not really here...I'm somewhere completely different...I'm in MY world, my safe haven...Then he grabs my hand...I'm back to reality...He's smiling beside me and looking at me...he's there and so am I. I'm here and no where else. Okay...he's got my attention now, I think that was his plan all along. I sigh and smile...I'm happy, content...I feel perfectly safe right now...Yet I can't get my mind off the situation...I can't hurt my best friend, but I like this guy...alot more than I thought I would...I'm scared of my own feelings...Here we go again.