See this blood,
Here,
It’s dripping down,
Slowly but surely,
My wrists are slit,
Your words cut,
So deep,
A break from me,
Is that what this is?
You love me,
I know for sure,
But what if,
This went further,
There are no “breaks”,
In reality,
So what does this,
REALLY mean?
I’m confused and hurt,
My heart aches,
My head pounds,
Your words play over,
In my head,
I think I have them,
Memorized now,
The tears running down,
My sorry cheeks,
Are the tears,
Who cry out “I’m so sorry!”,
They tell of my pain,
Of how I never wanted,
To feel this again,
The feeling of losing,
You,
So important to me,
I’ve let you in,
I’ve let down the walls,
You know everything,
Now you decide to run?
Have I pushed you too far?
Have I done this to us?
I’ve fallen in love with you,
I suppose that’s my fault,
I guess,
All of this is,
Are you scared?
Do you hurt?
Please,
Just tell me,
How to feel,
Should I feel safe,
You’ll come back,
Or scared that,
You won’t return,
I always wondered,
When you’d figure it out,
I’m not worth the trouble,
The fight,
The insanity of it all,
Honey,
I’m just as confused as you,
All I want is you,
Unfortunately,
You know that,
This hurts so bad,
I remember the last time,
I fought so hard,
To not break down,
I’ve told you of those times,
You promised you’d never,
Repeat that pain,
But look,
I’m feeling it again,
I choke on my words,
I choke on it all,
Now look,
My blood is across the wall,
I can paint you a picture,
The picture of how I feel,
All I need,
Is this blood,
And hopefully,
You’ll see,
Just how much you,
Mean to me,
Never mind,
All of this,
I’ll go along with,
What you say,
What you want,
I just want you,
To be happy,
With me,
Without me,
I guess it doesn’t matter,
Do what you want,
Do me no favors,
I can handle it,
I have before,
I’ll just burn in hell,
For a while,
Too many times,
I have,
I’m waiting,
For the time,
When I’m finally dead,
Away from the pain,
Away from this heartache,
God…help me…Take me away.
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